Through the meat grinder.
[picapp align=”right” wrap=”true” link=”term=meat+grinder&iid=5286563″ src=”http://view.picapp.com/pictures.photo/image/5286563/man-grinding-meat-butcher/man-grinding-meat-butcher.jpg?size=500&imageId=5286563″ width=”353″ height=”484″ /]You know, I don’t mean to complain, and I know that God doesn’t send you more than you can handle, but sometimes I wonder just what He’s thinking. Sometimes getting put through the brutal meat grinder doesn’t make you all holy and pure on the other end; sometimes you end up plopped on the butcher block — a former steak now turned into a pile of cheap ground beef.
So I think it’s time for this pile of ground beef to search for an eyeball, look around and figure out where its mouth went, stop being a doormat, and speak up. Maybe I need to stop just taking this stuff as it’s handed out. Maybe I need to say, “I have reached ‘more than I can handle’ and I have officially now HAD ENOUGH.” That’s the only thing I can think of that I haven’t done yet.
It’s not my place to share other people’s health troubles in my blog, but let’s just say that amidst recovery from brain surgery, starting a new chemo, dealing with nice fat medical bills, and so forth, another member of our family is suffering horrendously. I don’t have permission to share more here, but your prayers are appreciated.
I have plenty to be thankful for, don’t get me wrong. I have a great husband and son (both of whom are getting ground up regularly by this stuff too — probably worse than me), and we have a lot of joy in our lives. It’s just…. well, it’s just…… so MUCH.
The latest on me is I’ll be seeing the fancy research doctor at University of California San Francisco next week. She’s a specialist in breast cancer that has spread to the brain. I will be finding out the latest thinking in the field and see if she recommends anything new or different. My care here is more than competent — excellent, in fact — but research tends to be regional. They’re doing excellent work at the University of Washington here, but not exactly what this particular doctor is studying. So, we shall see. I will update you as I can.