MRI results and a few more plans.
I had a torso/breast MRI on Monday. Here are the results of the MRI and general plans for the future as far as we can see it now:
- The rib lesion is definitely a little bigger, though that’s still borderline with an element for interpretation depending on the radiologist who’s looking at it. It has been hurting me lately so we’re going to talk with Dr. Travaglini (radiation oncologist) about zapping the spot to settle it down a bit. I’ll still have surgery to remove that part of the bone, but that will come later.
- There is nothing more definitive about my lungs. The lesion is exactly the same — no growth, so that’s good. The weird spongy areas in the lower lobes of both lungs remain undefined. I think this is all because I still have that stinkin’ cough, as does Hank, as does Daniel. Love those viruses.
- One of the nodules they found in the right breast that had been “stable” for months might be a little bigger. The original cancer was in my left breast, so a move to the other side would either be another spread or an entirely new breast cancer. Just what I need. Right now it’s looking like it’s 8mm x 5mm, but I forgot to ask what it was when they did the last breast MRI in February 2009, or when they did the CT last month. The difference in size could be attributed to the fact that I wasn’t lying in exactly the same position I was in February (should have made a note of that…). So, my choices with that are to have another breast MRI in 3 – 6 months, have an ultrasound to take a look at the lump, or have a biopsy. In my current “less is more” mood, I chose to have the breast MRI a few months from now. We are all going to pray that the thing disappears. Okay?
So, now I’ve shifted from worrying about my lungs to worrying about my rib and right breast.
I can’t wait to get radiation on the rib. Oh yeah. Looooove that radiation. I guess it’s better than rib pain, though.
As far as future chemo goes, we’re looking at a total of 8 rounds and then re-evaluation. A round consists of one month. I’m just finishing up round 4. If the news is not good at the end of round 8, then I could potentially be on chemo for the rest of my life. I’m hoping that won’t happen. The goal is to keep me stable for many years either way. I just want my life back, so pray for that.
Some time after the 8 rounds of chemo, I’m facing surgery on the rib and possible removal of the lesion in my lung. I’m hoping I won’t also be facing surgery on my right breast. These are all major surgeries. I am so sick of doctor’s offices an hospitals I want to spit every time I see one. Maybe they can just put me in a coma and do them all at once.
In sum, keep praying. My rational mind wants some definition: “when will this be finished?” “when will I get my life back?” Apparently I won’t be getting that. Also please continue praying for Hank and Daniel.
I think in many ways this is much worse for them. Daniel frequently asks me “How are you feeling today” in a way that says “are you going to die”? It breaks my heart and I’m sick of it. In fact, I’m so angry at all this cancer crap that the next person who tells me to have a positive mental attitude is going to get an earful (sorry, Mom). But that’s for another blog entry.